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Re: Life

Posted: Mon Dec 23, 2013 2:14 pm
by Sethelu
To everyone in this world, I would like to apologize for my last two posts (minus the one to Vinny). I was told, repeatedly! ;), by Songhue that I was being a brat. Sorry for that. Hey, that rhymed! Anyway, I also wanted to thank everyone for not telling me off (minus Songhue as I mentioned earlier but not a bad thing because *cough* she was *coughchoke* right *coughcoughack* lol!) even though I deserved it. So, uh, yeah.

Re: Life

Posted: Mon Dec 23, 2013 2:23 pm
by Songhue
I did not tell you off. >_> I just made it abundently clear that there's other ways of purging bad days. ;) And that they don't seem nearly so bad in hindsight. ^_^

Re: Life

Posted: Mon Dec 23, 2013 4:51 pm
by Vineda
Oh no >.< Sorry Kyra, i know what that's like and it's no fun. Hopefully your close friends make up for it!
To Sethelu, i'm glad you vented if you had things on your mind, and i hope it helped you feel better.

Re: Life

Posted: Mon Dec 23, 2013 6:59 pm
by Kyra
Vineda.*hugs* Yes you guys and the other 2 to. Just sometimes it be nice to not have be another person to keep my ranks with others. This coming year will be an interesting one. I talked with Song, and family, but it looks like to keep doing what I love I did to play hard ball... Something unless in soccer or hockey not sure exactly how to do it, and keep doing it. All this from a job that says its all about team work and yes first 1, winter and a half it was, but not this one...

I also don't like how knowing this, how am I to trust anyone there. I feel odd one out way more than I did. Not like them and their "click". Hello its work for 18 year olds and up and there is a click? We tried to mold you, but you did not work, so hope to see you next year to count on you and then let you go again next winter... Ok didn't say that but felt like it.

Sorry ranting. Just feeling first once in a while angry, truly at them. I put out feelers, "Merry Christmas texts" to ones i thought had my bad and close too and not a word. Proves how much I can trust others... For someone working so hard on being more confident and being told its not enough, we need more... it shakes the hell out of the ground you stand on. I do not trust others quickly or let them see me right away for past knowledge of basically the same thing. Its almost I need to hit it off and feel myself being me around them from close to day one to have it work out.

Thanks for listening, needed that. Also good step towards being 100% with it, before and when it happened I could not speak to hardly anyone for a good few days.

Re: Life

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 1:06 am
by Keira
Short update: Yes i'm still alive and lurking :) I post occasionally and now that I have a laptop that has all its keys functioning I should a little better. I have a month left until this little girl comes and am overly exhausted and have had to go back on depression meds for depression (obviously) and anxiety. My doctor and I are hoping since that will be in my system when she gets here I wont have as bad Post Partum depression as I did with my other 2 kids but at this point, its a toss up. So Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year everyone. If I completely disappear for a few months, please forgive me. If you'd like to keep up with me better shoot me a pm and I'll add you on facebook :) Loves to everyone :heart:

Re: Life

Posted: Tue Dec 24, 2013 1:21 am
by Songhue
Aye, it is sucky. I'll say again that it sounds like they want you assertive - they also probably saw you primarily as a coworker instead of a friend. I've an idea on that though - you know how there's book clubs and bird watching groups and all that? Try joining something like that, you could find someone to really get close to after sharing in that common interest. Like, I have a fandom I'm in and most of those I meet who share that fandom are insta-friends (and I've grown closer in my established relationships as my obsession took hold of others).

Also, remember to channel your lovelies. Personally I shift forms - I found myself in star-wolf the other day as a Chihuahua tried to rip my face off. Didn't drop it or yank away ftom it, just said "I don't think so" and tucked it under an arm until it chilled. Was completely respectful to me the rest of the day once I made it submit (of course it tried to eat everyone else, but it didn't mess with the wolf).



And that explains why you've sounded semi-defeated whenever we'd get a chance to talk, Keira. <3 I thought it was simply the aches getting to you.