Here I am... however many years and 2 kids later... still alive.
Life
Moderator: Tigress
Re: Life
How is it already 2025?
Still love this place
I'll always be glad for it.
Edit for actual update:
I'm joining the parent club soon - currently about 8 months pregnant and having my baby shower on Sunday. But that's probably not the best place to start... Let's see, here.
So I had been married and even considered myself happy in it. He ended up dying a few years back - had a heart attack in the living room as I was waking up one day. That was back in 2020, I think, and 6 months later my old dog I'd had for 15 years died in his sleep.
So I bought a house and moved states again to get closer to family, as I had no network where I was at. I made some new friends, lost most of them, and yet through them I met my current partner.
Things got really hard for a while. I started falling off the nonalcoholic wagon, found myself downing liquor every morning as I got home, but that lasted less than 2 months before my partner brought me back into line. It'd been so long since the old promise of the custom/redraw that I'd forgotten about that prize for staying sober, so I was lucky to have someone to call out my excuses.
It was another hard year after that, where I lost those friends I had made and ended up working the 2 jobs and picking up a class on top of the 60+ hour work weeks. I kept busy enough to avoid thinking or feeling as much as possible - but 2 hours of sleep a day also had me trying to fall asleep on my way home from my small, 20 minute commute from my night job.
Still, I stayed sober, so there was that.
Eventually I changed jobs; it was still a lot of hours once you factored in the mandatory overtime, but 60 hours on a single job in 12 hour blocks is still manageable as 5 days on shift and 3 days off. My partner moved in not long after, and he's been here for the last year and a half.
I only have about 2 weeks before I start my leave of absence to begin waiting for our baby girl to arrive, and then I start my maternity leave. I'm aiming to find remote work that will let me stay home with her, but it's been a struggle so far.
I know it's been quiet here for a while, now; I'm not anticipating having that change any time soon. I guess I'm just sentimental, lol. Back when I had nothing and no one else, there was this place for me to hide in.
I still daydream, sometimes, about all those RP plans I had. AuraSidra all grown and, eventually, figuring things out with Plasma. Seeing if Tribe and Gypsy could find their proper Circle. Seeing how growing up might change things with AuraSidra and her best friend Astarte. Seeing if someone might come along that could knock OakHeart's thick head on straight. Using the redraw gift to try and bargain for a set of wings for Eternal. I was thinking elliptical bird wings for her - like sparrows and crows and grouse have.
I can see her with the fluffy-cloud look of those feathers, so much like a cloud skidding across a full moon - and with the same shimmering light of moonlight through clouds.
For that matter, part of me wonders what new Serians may have been discovered. With the new potentials in the Silent Song alter there could be a beautiful aurora creature hidden in there somewhere. Or a "spirit" Serian, as they aren't quite as solid as their brethren.
It's nice to daydream about, and nicer that I can muse with contentment. After these last few years, I've come to realize how much I used to lean on this place; and that I don't need to any more. But I'll always love it here, for what it was and what it could be.
Still love this place
I'll always be glad for it.Edit for actual update:
I'm joining the parent club soon - currently about 8 months pregnant and having my baby shower on Sunday. But that's probably not the best place to start... Let's see, here.
So I had been married and even considered myself happy in it. He ended up dying a few years back - had a heart attack in the living room as I was waking up one day. That was back in 2020, I think, and 6 months later my old dog I'd had for 15 years died in his sleep.
So I bought a house and moved states again to get closer to family, as I had no network where I was at. I made some new friends, lost most of them, and yet through them I met my current partner.
Things got really hard for a while. I started falling off the nonalcoholic wagon, found myself downing liquor every morning as I got home, but that lasted less than 2 months before my partner brought me back into line. It'd been so long since the old promise of the custom/redraw that I'd forgotten about that prize for staying sober, so I was lucky to have someone to call out my excuses.
It was another hard year after that, where I lost those friends I had made and ended up working the 2 jobs and picking up a class on top of the 60+ hour work weeks. I kept busy enough to avoid thinking or feeling as much as possible - but 2 hours of sleep a day also had me trying to fall asleep on my way home from my small, 20 minute commute from my night job.
Still, I stayed sober, so there was that.
Eventually I changed jobs; it was still a lot of hours once you factored in the mandatory overtime, but 60 hours on a single job in 12 hour blocks is still manageable as 5 days on shift and 3 days off. My partner moved in not long after, and he's been here for the last year and a half.
I only have about 2 weeks before I start my leave of absence to begin waiting for our baby girl to arrive, and then I start my maternity leave. I'm aiming to find remote work that will let me stay home with her, but it's been a struggle so far.
I know it's been quiet here for a while, now; I'm not anticipating having that change any time soon. I guess I'm just sentimental, lol. Back when I had nothing and no one else, there was this place for me to hide in.
I still daydream, sometimes, about all those RP plans I had. AuraSidra all grown and, eventually, figuring things out with Plasma. Seeing if Tribe and Gypsy could find their proper Circle. Seeing how growing up might change things with AuraSidra and her best friend Astarte. Seeing if someone might come along that could knock OakHeart's thick head on straight. Using the redraw gift to try and bargain for a set of wings for Eternal. I was thinking elliptical bird wings for her - like sparrows and crows and grouse have.
I can see her with the fluffy-cloud look of those feathers, so much like a cloud skidding across a full moon - and with the same shimmering light of moonlight through clouds.
For that matter, part of me wonders what new Serians may have been discovered. With the new potentials in the Silent Song alter there could be a beautiful aurora creature hidden in there somewhere. Or a "spirit" Serian, as they aren't quite as solid as their brethren.
It's nice to daydream about, and nicer that I can muse with contentment. After these last few years, I've come to realize how much I used to lean on this place; and that I don't need to any more. But I'll always love it here, for what it was and what it could be.
